Suicide Is A Daily Agenda

Suicide Is A Daily Agenda
by Roy dela Cruz

It never fails
Part of my consciousness
From the time I rise up
‘til I shut my eyes again

The nearest exit
Always beckoning me
To take the escape route
And end all these pains

I am still fortunate
That sanity still prevails
Take control of myself
And see this through the end

But it never really fails
Like a daily agenda
I hope I can stand my ground
Fight the urge to surrender

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October 27, 2011
11:57 p.m.
Angeles City
Philippines

What does "not yet ready" really mean?

"I'm not yet ready"

What does that phrase really mean? I've been hearing it quite too often lately… and it's irritating. When does a girl mean when she says she's "not yet ready."

Does it mean…
- "actually, I could use a little diversion except that you're not just my type"
- "you could be good… just give me some time, say… two years to never"
- "I'm not really looking right now, so why don't you be a bee and buzz off!"
- "I'm not ready and that's just that. Do not complicate things further, okay? They're already harder as they are now."

And so on… and so forth…

Doesn't make sense really,  to me at least.

Don't bother. Nothing makes sense to me anyway.

A Poet's Curse

A Poet's Curse
by Roy dela Cruz

Verses don't just happen
They don't float in the air
And picked up by the poet
To be pasted on his paper

They are dug deep within
The core of the poet's soul
So you sometimes hear a faint heartbeat
As you read each and every verse

Yes, each line of the poem
Is a part of the poet's pain
A parcel of his being
Or even the core of his existence

Such is the curse of the poet
To go through all those pains
And breathe out through verses
All the pains that have been felt

Verses don't just happen
They are part of a poet's curse

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Roy
October 23, 2011
9:27 p.m.
Angeles City
Philippines