Sunday, November 25, 2012

When will this end?

Sometimes I wish... all of these could end instantly... at this very moment.

If only I was just living for myself...

Monday, November 12, 2012

Sunday, November 11, 2012

And I thought I had friends...

I have many friends... or so I thought.

I am not the type who would abuse friends or ask them for help... unless there is really nothing more that I can do.

You know what's funny? When people tell you that they are always there for you... that you got a friend... they got your back... that you will never be alone... you believed them.

Until such time that you actually need them.

That's when you find out that you have always been alone. They were there for you because they can get something from you.

Honestly... I thought I had friends.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

A beggar once more...

I thought these days are over... but I was wrong.

I am back to begging... back to humiliating myself... just so I can provide sustenance, education, and a decent life for my kids.

And I know it won't be long when the number of friends I have will be reduced further... because nobody likes a parasite.

I honestly thought I'm through with and I can once again rebuild my self-esteem.

I was wrong.