My blood pressure and my present state of mind

And so I realized that I am a mortal after all... and aging at that.

Because of a stubborn headache I have been feeling these past few days, plus a pain in the nape, I went to a nearby hospital for a checkup.

Lo and behold, my fear realized - my blood pressure was 140/100. The doctor asked me when did I start getting the high blood pressure. I said I do not know because I really do not have my BP checked. The last I had it was March of 2010 and it was normal at 120.

After giving me medicine, which eventually normalized my BP and lessened the pain I'm feeling, the doctor said I should monitor my BP. If possible, have it checked everyday.

And my present state of mind? I guess, it what's really caused everything in the first place. Being so down and depressed... and pressed for time, there is really nothing going right for me and I guess my body can only take so much of my mind's working 24/7 because of worrying.

So, will the hospital visit make me stop worrying? I don't know. But the diagnosis definitely added to my considerations.

What's next?

Looking good in medical uniform

Of course, when we were young, we would like to dress up and assume another personality. Whether it be a superhero or anybody at work. I guess, things do not really change through the passage of time. Though I have not gotten into the profession, I have often wondered if I would look good wearing medical uniforms and I would really look like a medical personnel.

If I would have an extra budget, I would really try to find store where a can find nursing scrubs on sale or maybe even doctors scrubs, and of course I would be looking for cheap affordable ones. After all, I am not really into the profession, just trying to live out one of my childhood fantasies.

And after being in the medical scene, maybe I would try another profession... a fireman, perhaps?

"What's that on your face?!"

"What's that on your face?! Is that a frown?"
"Or have you just eaten a big-sized sour gum?"
Too funny, I'd say. Well, it was at the start
'til it began to prick, like a dull but stubborn dart.

If you're looking for honey, you won't find it from a cheese
some men weren't really born to please.

Try as I might, to put the smile that you want
but that dull and lousy face keeps on blocking the shots.
Should I wear a mask? Like the clown that I am
and make you all happy, and all these ridicule begone.

I really don't care, really don't give a damn
whether you say it in my face, or say it at my back
No, I won't take it against you, but I won't be obliged too
Not even if you offer me a bribe or two

Whether it's a frown or an effect of a sour gum
or it could even be a Monalisa turned upside down
but that's all I got, that's all that there is
some men weren't really meant to please.

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Roy
January 7, 2011
6:59 PM
Angeles City
Philippines

Why I closed my checking account

Before the previous ended, I went to my bank on last banking day to close my checking account because of their policy that did not really fit right with me - it is the bank's policy to charge account holders P100 every month if they did not get their bank statements. I am quite surprised, really. They are the only bank with such a policy.

My account is only an individual account, so unlike company checks who maintains a lot of money in their account, that P100 debited from my account each month I was not able to get my bank statement is really a big deal for me. But it is not really the money, it is the disagreement with such a policy which I believe is very self-serving and anti-client.


But like they always say, no matter how stupid I may think such policy is, it is still the bank's policy -- regardless of how their clients feel about it. So, the only solution for me was to close my account. I am sure, the bank would not mind. I really do not have that much in my account, I just used it once when I needed postdated checks as collateral for a loan.

I wonder how many more banks have such policy.