New year... new hope.... naaah!

They say that a new year brings new hope.... yeah, just like another rising sun brings in a new day... it really doesn't take a genius to figure that out. The sage who said that must be really proud of himself now.... who would have thought then that a rising sun means a new day?

Okay, where are we? I think I'm lost... oh yes! The New Year!

So, can we expect a better 2009? Should it really bring us new hope, better chances, and more wealth?

Come on! Stop kidding yourself! If you didn't do good in 2008, what makes you think you'll get better in 2009?!

I hate to be the one breaking this to you... the 'New Year, new hope' is nothing but a fallacy! A phrase coined by people who always wait for fortune to come in dropping on their lap.

There is really nothing wrong in having positive thoughts, is there? There's nothing wrong in holding on to hope either...

But by all means, get your butt off that chair and do something! Do you really think wealth would pop-out of that computer monitor landing on your lap?! Give me a break!

Yeah, you're right. I'm talking to myself again here... and you're nothing but an unfortunate witness to this event... or are you?

The new year is upon us, don't expect it to be a better year.... DO SOMETHING TO MAKE IT A BETTER YEAR!

Which reminds of a quotation I read in one of those self-help books....

"If you keep on doing what you're doing... you'll keep on getting what you're getting!"

An Interview with myself - Part 2

Well, it seems that this blog wasn't satisfied with the first interview, that it wants to get me into the 'seat' again. Since I really don't have anything better to do (being sick, cold and all), I decided to give in to his whims.

Me: Okay, so what is it this time?

Sugar Coated World (SCW): Hey, loosen up! Where not starting yet and you're already uptight. You are really getting into your character here.

Me: Ya, ya, ya, go ahead with your questions.

SCW: So how's your Christmas?

Me: So, do you want to end this interview right this instance?

SCW: C'mon, don't be such a spoiler, answer the question.

Me: Of all people, I mean blogs, you would ask me that question?! You know how my Christmas is! And how it will be for the years to come!

SCW: Hmmm.... looks like I won't get any decent answer from you on that. So, how's the blogosphere treating you lately?

Me: Well, if you would only get a higher page rank I would be able to get more writing opportunities and earn more, perhaps I can get more respect then.

SCW: Me?! Page rank?! Hey, it's your fault! It's you who is posting craps on me!

Me: Craps?! You call my posts craps?!

SCW: What would you call all those hatred, angst, pains, frustrations and other emotional outburst? You think people would love to hear you whine?

Me: But you were created for that purpose?!

SCW: And even for that reason, you rarely get me updated, ei?

Me: Look who's getting into whose character now.

SCW: Okay, let's change the topic. I can see that you're quite a celebrity now. More people know you and your letters since that TV stint you had.

Me: Yeah, it's was quite a ride I admit. Who would've have thought that talking to the dead can get me into the limelight.

SCW: Of course it will! It is full of emotion! It's just the perfect bait for the media! Don't you know that?

Me: Hey,!I didn't create that blog just to catch any media's attention or to create some hype! You know that!

SCW: Well, at least you got some positive reactions. You brought inspirations to others because of your letters. Some people realized that they should show their love to their family while they're still alive.

Me: Those were the positive comments. But you know what? I followed some links, and you wouldn't believe what were some of the reaction was.

SCW: What?!

Me: Some thinks it's creepy, you know talking to the dead and stuff. Some even take me for a lunatic, writing all those letters to a departed love one, and get this, one even took note of my imperfect English like she was my grammar teacher!

SCW: Hahaha! People have their opinion, you can't take that away from them.

Me: Yeah! Like I care!

SCW: And what would they think of now when they see you talking to yourself? Hahaha!

Me: Hahaha!

SCW: Hey, thanks a lot for this opportunity. This is the nicest conversation I had with you so far. But before we wrap up, I got some friends here who has some message for you.

Me: Really?! You have friends? Hahaha!

SCW: Cut that crap, let's hear them out, here they are.

Be Inspired Now: Hi there brother! I know how hard it is for you lately. Just hold to HIM, He sees everything and He is in charge. Take care 'bro!

more than copy-paste: Hey! Thank you for making me a better blog than just a mere copy-paste. I'm enjoying it all now. Merry Christmas! Just hang in there!

Money Online: Hi! Just keep on going. Money may be important, but it's not the most important thing in the world. We can get there in time, we don't need to hurry. In the meantime, spend more time with your kids. It's holiday!

Letters To Mama: Hi! Next to this blog, I'm the one who knows all your frustrations. You may not believe it, but I do send all those letters to your wife. She knows everything, and she is with you. Take care.

Kapampangan blog: As much as I would like to talk in my native tongue, my colleagues here might not understand and may not like it. Anyway, this is just what I have to say, "Agyu 'ta yan, 'bro!" We can do it brother!

Roysville: Honestly, you are a revelation to me. I didn't know you had all those business sense in you. Keep sharing those, who knows? Someday, we might get our own book published ;)

House Of Puroy: Although I have remained to be just a blog and no longer an enterprise, I am still happy being with you. We brought some attention to a lot people regarding how service and product expectation should be. They may not always agree, but I know we can always back up our claim. Keep it up!

The Struggling Blogger: Looking forward to more struggles with you. Just like my brothers here, I will be with you all the way. I know all your plans and I'm backing you up 100%! Let's move forward brother!

Sugar Coated World: What? Do you really think I will let this pass without me delivering a message too? I may be your interviewer right now, but I'm still one of your blogs. Anyway, I just want to say that, please don't mind all those things that I throw at you sometimes. It's just what I am, you know, the 'character' thing. But I'm always behind you... always.

REFLECTIONS: Hello, I've been with you from the start and I know I will be with you 'til the end. I'm still looking forward to our book getting published, I know it will come true someday. Take care. Just keep writing.

Me: (sniff) where would I be without you guys.

What Christmas reminds me of...

My wife's fruit salad, her cooking... her energetic effort to make the holidays memorable for us in spite of her condition then... her laughter everytime our kids play during the parlor games... her wish to have a simple celebration with our kids....

But most of all, Christmas reminds me that...

she's no longer with us...


Christmas won't be the same anymore...

No Sugar Coating, just an awakening video

There are some things that you just can't sugar-coat. No matter how hard you try, true intentions will always show.

Watch the video to see what I mean.



Please spread the word, spread the video.

Episodes...

"Won't these ever stop coming?" I keep on asking myself. Why can't I continue just moving forward? Why do these episodes keep on coming back haunting me?

I know, I won't get the answers.

It's our wedding anniversary today... all throughout the day I was staring at the computer monitor. Thinking whether I would write another letter, or I would stand up, go to the kitchen and prepare something... or take the children out, perhaps to the mall to celebrate the occasion.

But sunset came and I haven't accomplished anything, I wasn't able to decide on doing anything. At a time, some tears managed to escape, I needed to wear shades so my kids won't notice it.

Then there's that ghost of pessimism again... the feeling of being a loser sinking in again... yes, these are what I call episodes.

Until when these will happen, I really don't know.

Honestly, I'm tired of these.

I thought I'm already over these... these episodes...

Blog and let blog... that should be the case, right?

Just when I thought that I found a great blogger support group have I crossed on one that is so self-engrossed. I never thought I'd see the day... after all we are all bloggers. Aren't we supposed to support each other?

But when you see bloggers slamming bloggers, will you stop and think, are there really 'better' bloggers? Or maybe, there really exist an 'elite' list of bloggers - demi-gods of blogging if you may, who thinks that they can say anything and bully us 'not-so-great' bloggers as if trying to push us out of the blogosphere.

First, they looked down on free-hosted blogs, and now they damned the blogs who gets paid for their posts.

What is this about? I really can't understand. Bloggers who are trying to earn decent money, instead of trying to con everyone into signing any bogus affiliates scams, are suddenly 'low level' individuals?

Which hypocrites doesn't earn from blogging?

DAMNED THEM!

I'm sure, they will have their day soon!

Do they really have to count the days?

I hate it when they do that! Why do they have to count the days 'til Christmas? As if counting it will make any difference... it will come, whether we like it or not.

Whether I like it or not.

Suddenly, I'm the new Mr. Scrooge of Christmas.

No, not really. Honestly, it really doesn't make any difference to me anyway, whether it's Christmas or not. I just don't care.

I don't think I need to explain, do I?

Sure, go ahead with your celebrations. I don't forbid you. I don't have that right. In fact, if you greet me on Christmas, I'll greet you back so as not to dampen your Christmas spirit.

But then again, like I said, it really won't make any difference on my part.

No Sugar Coating this time, just great holiday sale

Honestly, there are more questions popping in my mind. But this one is not one of them. The source of the $ 8 Complete Rx Eyeglasses has some buzz for the holidays.

Zenni Optical, The popular online eyeglasses shop has a new line of stylish frames design that are available on their website. The new Holiday Glass Frames From Zenni Optical are created especially for the season.

See their wide array of holiday frames now, with still the same affordable price and the same high quality.

No Sugar Coating, just the facts on this great holiday sale.

Do we have the right to ask?

I've been there... not long ago... watching a love one fight for dear life. It's not easy. You're torn between holding on and letting go, for exactly the same reason - because you love them.

This morning, we rushed my auntie to the hospital. She was pale, she was not breathing. Thank God she still has pulse... heartbeat... albeit weak and irregular. My cousins were devastated. They've lost my uncle last year... and now my auntie, their mother is in life and death situation.

And in this situation, you can't help but ask, why? Why is this happening? Why did God let this come unto us? Why is He not helping us? Why? Why? Why? It never ends... yet we never get the answer.

Nobody knows God's ways... it's beyond our comprehensions. Sure, it's easy to say that God knows what's best for us... especially when you are not in the situation. It's really easy to judge when you're just on the outside looking in. We think we understand... but do we really?

Nobody knows... nobody understands... even those who think that they do.

Honestly, for me, the best that I can do now is ask.

Accident insurance claims, know your rights!

If only I could get back to those who took advantage of me and wife when she was still here. We have been conned, bullied, and lied at. Unfortunately, it was not our nature to get even. I wish I would know how to fight for my right.

First Personal Injury could have helped, but only if it has some accident in it. If it does involve an accident, they could assist in filing for personal injury claims. Because fighting for the rights of accident victims is their specialty. They have professional injury lawyers who are expert in their field and knows how to win the fight of the victim. They guarantee a high percentage of winning the case of the victim.

Their service even includes a no-win, no-pay policy. This is their proof that they want to help especially those who don't have the money to pay them. Unfortunately, the people I've met before are not like them.

Street bikers are often bumped and sideswiped, because people think they don't have a right on the road. But the truth is they do. First Personal Injury encourages them to file for Bicycle accident claims and will guide and assist them every step of the way to get their rightful due.

And for motor vehicle drivers involved in an accident with another vehicle, sometimes they suffer from whiplash because of the strong impact of the accident. Then, they should file for whiplash injury claims.

So, if you were involved in an accident recently, or maybe even for quite some time now, why not give First Personal Injury a call. Who knows? You might get something once you learned about your rights. That is the only legal way to get even to others who caused you harm.

I really wish they have emotional injury claims.

Cleaning up our acts

These days, there's so much waste and chemicals polluting our environment, and these are damaging our one and only planet. And daily, these are increasing at an alarming rate. Each of us should do our share, no matter how small our act can be, to preserve the Earth for the future generations.

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"I know how it feels to beg"

Whenever I am writing a blog post, most of the time the article takes a life of its own. That is why I end up writing something that I never intended to write in the first place. Yet I do not edit nor delete them.

Just like my recent post, An effort to raise funds, my own little way of spreading the word about two angels who needed help. I blogged about it because I know how it feels to be there, to be helpless. And just like I said in the post "I know how it feels to beg."

I never really intended to write that there, but somehow the story reminds me of my situation then. Although it was of a different case, it was a situation wherein I was in need. I was practically begging... looking out for money to spend for my wife's next dialysis session.

I am thankful to those who have supported us then.

But most of all, it also reminded me that some people then looked at me as a con artist. People who took me as an opportunist who is only out to get some money... and it has brought my already dampened spirit lower than low.

That is why when I read the news in Philippine Star, without really anything much to share, I did the next best thing that I can do - I blogged about it, so that at least the word could spread around. Even though I just have a small influence with a small number of readers, I just hope it could amount to something.

That way, their families wouldn't have to beg themselves. They won't be looked down upon... they won't be doubted. And maybe through the power of blogs, they might receive the help that they need.

Believe me, it's not easy being a beggar... especially when you're perceived to be someone who should be successful.

Nouveau Riche for real estate investment education

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Every student of Nouveau Riche has a potential of making it big and becoming a big name in the real estate investment industry. This is because they are being thought by professional real estate investors, people who are practicing the profession themselves. These people are unselfishly sharing their experiences, know-how and techniques that made successful in the industry.

And now that Nouveau Riche is being lead by a new CEO, former University of Phoenix President Dr. Laura Palmer Noone, who brings with her years of experience in handling an educational institution. Nouveau Riche can be expected to be a more dynamic institution which will provide hope and education to their students.

The real estate provides great opportunity, but it is available to those who are qualified and are willing to grab it. And one can only be qualified once he has the proper knowledge to handle the intricacies of the industry.

Rags to riches... can it really happen?

Although I don't really want to use the word envy, we can't help but feel that way when we hear of rags to riches stories of people we know. While we may feel happy for other people's fortune, we also wish that we could be as lucky too. But guess what, rising from rags to riches isn't all about luck but hard work, commitment and dedication.

This is what Efren 'Bata' Reyes gave to become a world champion billiard player. Manny Pacquiao did not reach his status overnight but through years of continuous training and discipline. The same goes true with our bowling hero Paeng Nepomuceno. Nothing is really sweeter than the fruits of long and hard labor, instead of instant fortune who doesn't really last long.

This is what the students of Nouveau Riche are experiencing, reaping the fruits of their success because they dared accept the challenge of the opportunity. The opportunity of making it big in the real estate investment business.

Nouveau Riche actually means 'New Rich' in French. No wonder then than graduates of the Noveau Riche University are fast becoming Nouveau Riche themselves. They have become a living proof that rags to riches stories can happen... if you work hard for it.

Can't move on?

“Why can’t you move on?” I am puzzled. What does moving on means? When can one say that he can’t move on or he has already moved on? Do I strike you as someone who was not able to move on?

After being exposed on national TV because of my letters to my wife, there are not few who said that maybe it’s time for me to move on. Move on?! Again, what does moving on mean?

One fellow told me, “You’re still young, you can remarry. You need to MOVE ON. It doesn’t mean you have forgotten your wife.” There’s one interpretation of MOVING ON, getting married again. Is that really what “moving on” mean?

One comment that I received says “I don’t think this is what your wife want you to do. She wants you to MOVE ON, take care of your kids and your future. Stop this foolishness.” And I take it that the comment meant for me to stop writing my letters and ‘get a life!’ so to speak.

In my 40 years of existence in this planet, I never lived based on anybody else’s standard. And I’m not going to start now. I don’t think their definition of MOVING ON suits my own… and quite frankly “I don’t give a damn” (I always wanted to say that!)

I have a life. I am happy with my kids. Getting married again is not my priority and me going to stop writing my letters is out of the question. Who would know what my wife wants? You think you know her better than me?

Fortunately for me, there are more supporters than these naysayers. And these people, though I may not reply to them directly, has given me more strength to continue with what I’m doing. People who sees beyond skepticism and believe that there could actually be an internet in heaven.

As for those people who insist on their definition of moving on, I’ll say “thank you very much, but by your standards, then I’d rather be stagnant”

Affordable prescription glasses

One of the effects of getting old is that the eyesight gets affected. Being 40 years old, and with too much exposure with the computer monitor, I have to admit that my eyesight is not as good as they used to be.

Unfortunately prescription glasses are not affordable, they could drain a hole in the pocket, if you know what I mean. Thanks to Zenni Optical $ 8 Rx Eyeglasses, I can afford to have better eyesight without cutting much on my budget.

And with the Incredible Stylish New Frames From Zenni, I can still look cool while I maintain to have a clearer vision. Prescription glasses that can make you look cool! What more can you ask?

To back-up Zenni Optical’s reputation is the fact that Zenni Optical was on FOX news! That’s credibility for you! Now, my sight need not suffer. There is still an affordable prescription eyeglass for me from Zenni Optical.

Getting a loan fast and easy

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Some clarifications...

After the much publicized exposure on Rated K, I’d like to make some clarifications or answer some questions, which often were asked to me by those who saw me. Perhaps, others also have these questions on their mind.

How did you get featured?
How did they find you? Did you send them a letter? Did you send your stories? No, I didn’t write them nor any TV station for that matter. Actually, I am really surprised as to how they were able to stumble upon my blog which I don’t even promote like my other blogs.

Did they pay you?
No. Not the kind of payment that you expect. However, I did receive a kind of remuneration which they called honorarium. But it is really an amount way below what anybody would expect from an institution like them.

And lastly, not really the one who would want to burst that iconic bubble that Rated K painted for me. But I am really not the perfect loving husband that I was featured in the episode. I am far from being perfect, I have my faults. Our relationship is not a perfect one. Just like any marriages, we had our struggles.

But when it mattered the most, my wife and I, together with our children have stick it out. Because, we’re all that she has, and she’s all that we need. There have adjustments and sacrifices, especially on the part of the kids. But all through these, the experience made us a more solid family.

Learn Real Estate Investment

Being in a financial rut isn’t very nice. With your back against the wall, with no one or nowhere to turn to… is there is still hope? Perhaps, there is. With the help of Nouveau Riche University.

A real estate investment university, this institution is providing hope for people who have been in the slump for quite a long time. Providing a very conducive classroom-like environment to induce better retention and faster learning, Nouveau Riche helps its students gain knowledge on the ins and outs of real estate investment.

Knowing how lucrative the real estate industry can be, students of Nouveau Riche are better equipped than other real estate investors who did not study at Nouveau Riche University. That is because teaching the students are professional real estate investors who are already successful in their chosen field. And unselfishly, they are sharing their secrets of success to their students.

From inside the classroom and out to the streets, students of Nouveau Riche University are guided, assisted, mentored, and advised until they finally get the confidence to go out on their own. Nouveau Riche’s track record boasts of a long list of success stories from its graduate who are now established real estate investors themselves.

So why sulk in the corner when there is hope. Visit the Nouveau Riche website now and start carving your future in real estate investment.

Real Estate Success Stories

The Nouveau Riche University has helped a lot of individuals achieve their dreams of financial freedom. And they did this by teaching them the basics as well as the advanced techniques and methods in real estate investment.

But in spite of this, Nouveau Riche Scam rumors have been proliferating in the internet. And for people who doesn’t really know the real story, they could easily be carried away and believe in these rumors.

But the testimonies of the hundreds of alumni of the Nouveau Riche University would not lie. Dispelling these Nouveau Riche Scam claims are the inspirational stories of people who believed in their system and are now professional real estate investors.

These people who actually thought they were a hopeless case because they have tried everything and yet their troubles only seem to grow. Until they stumbled upon and took the chance on the Nouveau Riche system, and the rest as they say is history.

These inspiring stories of people who were able to bounce back because from financial deficit to financial success are all featured in the Nouveau Riche blog. Serving as real testimonies on the veracity of the Nouveau Riche system and finally putting an end to all those Nouveau Riche Scam rumors.

So, would you just believe in every rumor? I’d say, get all your facts first. Because you might miss out on a fine opportunity.

You're too kind!... and I meant that in a bad way

When is kindness a liability? When it is being used against you or should I say, when it is being used to take advantage of you. Or is that really kindness or being an absolute naive or shall we say stupidity?

I don’t know why but it seems that I don’t have it in me to impose or to assert any rightful claim that I might have. I grew up believing that if only everybody should only do what is right, then there is really nothing to ask from anyone. Because everything will be given, as it should be given… and everyone will be given what is due them.

But what I can’t understand it that I seem to attract the opposite of the people I was hoping to meet and believe. Save for a few who do mean well, more are out to make a sucker out of me… and usually they succeed.

We all have to look out for ourselves, I know. But should that mean taking advantage of other’s misfortunes as well?

Ironies happen...

Ironies happen. Yes, just like shit. (oops! Sorry about that, I just remembered a t-shirt I once saw) And in my life, ironies happening are quite common… and are most of times irritating, if not totally absurd. Like somebody is really playing with me… or is there really?

I got my driver’s license at the time when I no longer have the confidence to drive in the street because of an accident I once had. Not really a serious one, but enough reason for me to believe that the road is not for me.

I am a CPA, but I cannot practice. Because having worked outside the field of accountancy for more than ten years has somehow made me be left behind of all the developments in the industry.

I am a blogger who doesn’t earn.

But you know what? I finally found a full time job on the internet which allows me to stay at home while I earn as much as my daytime job. This is good news because now, I can give up my job and be with my kids whenever they need me. And then… my internet connection got suspended! Bummer! Now I still have to go out to do my online job at internet shops.

But you know which irony I hated the most? Is that lately, I am getting little successes, that little by little I am getting recognized… getting something for my writing. But through all these little joys and successes, I don’t have my wife with me to share all this things.

Apprehensions on Rated K stint

Well, it’s all over my blogs. My Rated K stint this Sunday, October 12, 2008. While this whole new experience excites me no end, it also brings me lots of apprehensions as well. I really don’t know what’s peculiar with my Letters To Mama that it caught their fancy. In fact, it was the one blog which I do not advertise nor promote in any of the social networks and forums I was in… yet they were able to chance upon it.

There’s really nothing I can do right now as the shooting for the episode is already over, but to wait and see what this could bring me. I don’t know how they are going to feature it or which point they are going to highlight. But being in the limelight scares this private individual a lot.

Knowing how cruel some people can be, will it cause me to be judged as different? Would they think of me as less of a person? Would this cause me endless ridicule and mockery? Will they even see the story as a credible one? Yes I know, always the pessimist in me.

But what I am really afraid most being exposed in this much magnitude is that, it might dig up skeletons buried deep in the closet, or it could open up old wounds.

I really hope not… or if ever, I hope it will be sugar coated.

My Entrecard account deleted

I was surprised to receive an e-mail that says "Your Entrecard account is deleted", great! Just what I need, another boost in my blogging career.

My Entrecard account that was deleted was my account with Roysville. It was deleted because I don't have an entrecard widget on my site. And I don't have an entrecard widget on my site because it was hosted on Wordpress, and Wordpress does not accomodate any widget that has javascript in its code. And entrecard is JavaScript.

Requesting Entrecard to come up with a non-javascript widget proved futile, and so is asking wordpress for an exception on the anti-javascript policy. So there, I maintained an Entrecard account without having any entrecard widget on my site.

Eventually, entrecard caught me (or somebody squealed, no thanks to that blogger) and deleted my account. No ifs and buts, no explanation required, they got the axe and got my blog. Even with my blog post explaining why I don't have an entrecard widget notwithstanding.

Anyway, I'm pretty sure Roysville will still do just fine even without entrecard. After all, posts on that blog are not about money making or sensationalism or nonsense rants and reviews. Just pure articles of sharing my little knowledge on entrepreneurship, management, sales and service.

Yup! Roysville will do just fine.

Great T-shirt Designs

I just stumbled upon a website that is haven for both graphics artists and graphic tees hunters. That is Ink Fruit, a website where you will find outstanding t-shirts graphics that will surely make anyone standout.

If you are an artist and want to get a chance of getting your art on tees, then why don't you design a t shirt and send them to Ink Fruit. Because every week, they are having a contest where a submitted design will be selected by popular vote. I don't think campaigning is prohibited, so why don't you give all your friend a buzz and refer the site to them so they can vote for you.

The best tshirt design will then be printed on a high quality fabric tees. Screen printed and not just transfer printed, so they will definitely last longer. This will be then sold at the site, with full credits at the graphics artist.

If you want to see the competition, check out their website and see cool graphics submitted by previous winners, as well as on-going contest where you can join and also vote for you favorite design.

By the way, this is also a social network site where you meet and network with artists online. Register now and open a whole new world for you.

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Lord, I am not asking for millions!

No Lord, I am not asking that much. I am only asking for a chance to be given a clean slate so I can start again... for the sake of my children. The storm that passed us has left me with more than just bruised ego, a diminished self-esteem and a deeply tarnished reputation, it has also left me deep in debt.

Lord, I thank You for finally giving my wife the rest she deserved, and for giving me a work, both in the real world and on the net, but being in a negative financial state, all these seem to be for naught. Every time the phone rings, I am filled with anxiety. Every month-end, I feel more worried... and recently I received another notice of disconnection from the electric company.

Lord, don't give me millions. It's not really what I'm asking for. But please give the opportunity to be able walk with dignity... where I can get respect, instead of pity and sympathy. Where I will no longer be wanting, and I will no longer need to beg.

I pray to You my Lord, You know what's best. I know I don't have the right ask Your ways. That's why I'm praying my God, not for my own sake, but for my children. They have already suffered and sacrificed enough.

Sure, I could use the millions, I won't deny that. But if I can't manage it in such a way that it can alleviate our predicament, I don't need it.

Give me money, I'm praying for that Lord, but give me too the wisdom, courage and strength to carry on.

I beg you Lord... I pray.

Another disconnection notice

This could probably be my last post for a while... in this blog or in my other blogs. That is if I won't be able to find a solution for my yet another problem. I just arrived home from work and I found another disconnection notice, we were scheduled to be disconnected today if I didn't pay.

Fortunately, nobody is at home that is they weren't able to disconnect our meter. But realizing this, maybe they'll come early tomorrow.

Now what?!

An Interview With Myself

Because I haven't been blogging here, this blog decided to ask me some questions, a sort of interview if you may.

So, how are you?
I'm fine. But let's cut the crap, and go ahead with your questions.

Hmm... touchy are we? Okay, will you admit that this blog is your least favorite?
Now, why did you say that?

Of all the blogs you have, this blog has the farthest number of days in between posts.
You noticed. Well because people would love to read beautiful and inspiring stories more than one who talks of pains and frustrations. And they'd rather read about blogs telling how much money they earn than read about one's whining.

I see, so you'd rather write like you have an inspiring story to tell or you're really earning from your other blogs.
I really wish I could write more inspiring stories or earn from my blogs. Unfortunately, the opposite of both are true.

I would agree with that, I can see that you're not also writing as much in your Be Inspired! blog that much.
Well, you can't really force inspiration. The readers will notice if you're just making it up.

So how's the blogosphere been treating you?
O great! I got 9 blogs who really isn't getting that much hits, with 0 PR and some seem to be not even indexed by Google, no subscribers and not even much cards drop from EntreCard. I can say that the blogosphere is really treating me well.

Sorry about that. We'll I've been told too, are you trying to live in the past?
Now, where did that come from?

Why then do you need your Letters To Mama blog?
As you can see, I really don't have anybody here with whom I can talk to. That blog is my connection to my wife. It also keeps me sane by providing me an outlet of all my thoughts and feelings.

Why don't you try to talk to real people?
Yeah! Like they care!

By the way, since your wife is gone, and you're already free and all-
Hey! Don't go there!


Well, it's just that haven't you really given it a thought to go back-
I said don't go there! Shut up!


Okay, okay! I really don't have anything to ask anymore. How do you feel about this interview?
I feel stupid!

My children don't deserve another sick parent!

I hope it's just paranoia that I'm feeling. But last night, I woke up with so much pain... it hurts so much that I was in fact crying in pain. And I felt so cold... thought I was chilling. All my kids were sound asleep, they never knew what was happening to me.

Today, I was in pain the whole day. The lower back at the right side is where it hurts the most. I remember my wife telling me that if it hurts on that part, it indicate something is wrong with the kidney... she should know. It was the cause of her death.

As I was working... through the day, it wasn't once I almost fainted. If only I weren't conscious enough to stop working for a while and rest, I know I could have dropped within a few minutes.

I was worried. Not for me, not for the pain that I feel, but for my kids. They don't deserve another sick parent who will deprive them of what they should be having.

I don't know. Who cares?

All those affiliates, yet no opportunities....

I was very much happy and excited that some of my blogs got approved on some blog affiliates that pay bloggers for writing. I was thinking of all the possibilities... the earnings... the diverse subject I can write... I am really excited. Because more than the earning, I will be writing.

But after a few months, except for one unpaid and disapproved post, there aren't really any opportunities that has been handed to me by these blog affiliates. One things I noticed though is that, the spam emails I received increased significantly. I wonder if the it has to with all those information sheets I filled up.

Really makes me wonder because some bloggers get lots of writing opportunities. I get none. Maybe it has to do with PR or Page Rank. I don't have any. I don't know. Like those with high PR can really write better.

Well I'm working on mine, although I'm not sure how. Maybe someday I'll have my time. Get a high PR and those affiliates will be practically kneeling down my feet.

Yeah I know... wishful thinking.

Generous to the dead...

I am very thankful that there were many people who helped us at the time of my wife's death. If not for them, I might not be able to give her a decent burial. Fortunately, people who came at the wake are more than willing to share. I was able to receive much then, enough for her burial.

But as I was holding the money... I asked myself, why didn't I receive this much while my wife was still alive. It could have sustained her, as the money I received would be good for many dialysis sessions. But now that she's gone, what good would this money do? Except for burial.

How I wish people would show generosity when the person who needs it is still alive...

She still could've been with us now...

My post got disapproved

How cunning! Social spark let my post stayed for a week... only to be told that it was disapproved. The reason? There is no interim post, 7 days after my submitted post. And all the while their link is up there running and getting traffic thru my post.

These affiliate blogging is really giving me a hard time, and I have yet to get anything from. It's either my blogs get disapproved for reasons that I can't understand ("we can't approve your blog cause it's set to private" wtf! my blogs aren't set to private!), or my blogs get approved... and yet, there are no opportunities!

Now, here I got an opportunity and then I'm dealt with technicalities! I got to get the deal with these affiliate blogging. Either that or I totally abandon them.

I've been giving them my infos (emails, etc.), and giving them lead links. And so far, I have yet to get a penny from them.

I am not deleting the post... I'm letting it stay to remind me of how cunning these affiliate blogging links are.

And yes, I do get lots of spam emails, thank you.

A second chance with Cisco

Being jobless for quite a long time, I have been asking myself – “With all my credentials, why can’t I get myself hired?” This has been consuming me for quite a while now. And I have arrived at the conclusion that maybe I am applying in the wrong industry, or I need to spice up my resume to be more ‘hire-able’.

The industries on the rise these days are those that provide services in information technology or IT. In fact, most businesses nowadays rely on IT to boost up sales, increase efficiency, cut costs and more – all to create a better bottom line. Hmmm… I know a little about IT, I just need to brush up on my skills, I needed to learn more about the nitty-gritty so speak, to make myself more competitive.

With this in my mind, I searched the web for the site that can give me the best Cisco certification program, a much needed program that will help me boost my career. My search has led me to The Cisco Learning Network, and a first glance at the site, I saw that they have a very comprehensive program from starters to professionals in the field of IT. These programs are Entry (IP CCENT), Associate, Professional, Expert and Specialist.

I am seriously giving them a thought… if I really want a career boost, I need to build up my arsenal. If I learn and understand how LAN, Routing and Switching, Network Security, and Service Provider all works, together with other CISCO related terms, I can have all those who turned me down before rushing at my door.

So, if you’re like me who has been in a rut for quite a while now, check out Cisco Learning Network and see the opportunities they have for people like us to get up on our feet again.

How do You want me to pray?

How do You want me to pray?
For You to listen and to care
How do You want me to pray?
To see me through in everyday

All my life I have always served You
I have sang and even danced for You
All my works was to give You glory
Yet now I feel You have forsaken me

As I remember footprints in the sand
I’d like to think You carried me in You hand
But somehow I cannot feel the mystery
And I feel I am alone in my misery

I have knelt while I am praying
I even prayed while I was walking
Almost all the time I tried to call You
And perhaps because of the unworthy me,
I couldn’t hear You

What should I do today?
What do I need to say?
How do You want me to pray?
For You to listen and to care

Answer me please… I pray

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Roy
December 27, 2007
10:30 PM
Home

Stupid CAP!

What else can you call a company who steals your children's future?! They promised to provide for your child's college education need then just fold up without considering those whose future they destroyed. Or was it really a scam that took so many years in the making?!

Born loser... still....

Still without anything...

Nothing going for me... well, of course I'm breathing. I'm alive and typing this piece of shit on my blog. Pounding away on the keyboard at 1:31 AM, thinking that the harder I pound on the keys, money would pour out from the monitor or the disk drive like a slot machine or something.

Quickly, I am losing options. Losing plan... losing ground... Losing sanity.

Can't wait for what might happen next.

What have I got to lose?

I have nothing!

Should I hope again?

Do I really like to see myself in pain?... I have submitted another resume.. another job application. This overqualified (read: over-age) individual seems to can't get enough of those cold stares and doubting looks.

This time, I got referral! I am supposed to meet the head of the accounting. A person known to my sister in Canada who called her here in the Philippines just to help me get a job. So I went as I was told, looked for her. On the letter, I followed my sister's instructions.

Unfortunately, the front desk where I was supposed to ask, directed me to another door. When I finally reached my sister's friend's office, she wasn't there. I was told to meet her, she was supposed to be expecting me. Instead, a man from HR met me, got my resume and told me that they will just evaluate it and will call me anytime within the week.

Yeah right! And I am Iron Man!

Still asking those "why's"...

After a long time... here I am again. Still with the questions in my mind...

Why did she have to go?... Why did she have to suffer?... Why weren't we allowed to happy?... Why?... Why?... Why?!

I never thought I would have these episodes again... an anxiety so intense that I just don't want to move... I just stay in one place, staring on blank walls... and asking those why's.

This isn't healthy I know. And I can't entertain this because I have kids to take care of. But somehow, realizing that only adds up to my anxiety.

If only she was still here with me. She doesn't have to do anything! She just have to be here! Here where I can see her... where I can feel her... where I can talk to her. Just to be here with me... is that too much to ask?

Life isn't really fair.

Perhaps, I spoke to soon...

I thought that was it! The light at the end of the tunnel! When finally a new hope has finally shined upon us. But, I should have known better. Like they always said "when something seems too good to be true... the fact is, it's probably is"

I was very optimistic after the interview week. I thought it was in the bag. My only apprehension then was leaving the kids. But, the whole week has passed and I didn't get a call. I don't know if I should still expect to be called. Like I said, it was too good to be true.

I guess I should look for more options now.

Old medical records...

Rummaging through old documents... trying to organize papers... I chanced upon old medical documents. These papers though, unfortunately, brought sadness and pains. They were my wife's lab results, medical certificates, prescriptions, and other records... and these brought back the pains of the days when she was still with us... suffering.

Now, I don't know what to do with these... should I throw them or should I keep them?

I want to throw them away cause I don't want to see them anymore... I don't want to be reminded of my wife's sufferings. I only want to remember my wife's happy memories. But I'm not sure if I should really dispose them.

Don't want to keep them... don't know if I should throw them....

This blog's turn to announce EntreCard....

To take a break from my rants and whines... I'm posting here the New EntreCard Features!

Okay, maybe I'm just doing it for the 2,000 EC credits... but who doesn't? Every EntreCard member, whether they admit it or not, does it for the same reason. Besides, it worth posting anyway.

The new feature allows members to add new blogs without the need to create a new account. Unlike before wherein the number of accounts you have corresponds to the number of blogs you registered with EnreCard. Now you just need one account and register all your blogs under the same account. If you already have other blogs with EnreCard, you can easily link them together. Now you can just switch between blogs and drops cards and post adverts at whim!

What's more, they came out with the Official EntreCard E-Book! To guide both new members and old alike... and it's FREE! So download it now!

Overqualified!

Since when do qualifications became liabilities? To me it has been a reality in more occasions that one. A licensed Certified Public Accountant, with eleven (11) years of working experience in a bank with Assistant Manager as my last position, computer literate, with sales and marketing experience as well - yet I can't get myself hired! Because I was told that I am overqualified!

I can't understand why my credentials and experiences suddenly became my liability! Maybe I should understate myself, but that would mean fabricating stories to fill in all those years in between. Otherwise, it would appear that I didn't do anything! Making me unqualified to take on any job position!

Honestly, I believe that overqualified is just a sugarcoated term for over-age. Yes, cause here in the Philippines, you can't find a job when you're already over 30 years old. That is direct discrimination I must say, but in order to avoid being accused of such, human resource departments used the term overqualified.

Another theory I can think of is insecurity. Superiors wouldn't want to handle nor supervise subordinates they know are more qualified and knowledgeable than them. I know this, because one time I was asked if it was okay if I'll be supervised by people younger than me. I said yes, because I have professional work ethics and doesn't look at the age of my superiors but perform my duties diligently whether or not I am supervised or not. But they thought otherwise.

Applying for an executive position, they would stare at you from top to bottom and doubts your capability. Yet if you would apply for a lower position - I'm even willing to work at the starting point in a company, be it a clerk or a receptionist, they would stamp your papers overqualified.

Come on! Give me a break!

She still could've been with us now...

This little device was actually the reason for everything. What was suggested to be a solution became worst than the initial problem. This is a peritoneal catheter - implanted in my wife's stomach for us to able to perform peritoneal dialysis in lieu of hemodialysis. They say this was the best solution... and the better alternative... but then...

Doctors know best... or so I thought. My wife was advised to convert from hemo to peritoneal due to a number of reasons. Her stomach never returned to it's normal shape due to ascites... her fistula, as they say would 'explode' anytime as it is already in worse condition... for her weakening body, it's best for her to stay at home. And most importantly, patients who were converted to peritoneal dialysis were able to recover quickly and were able to live and move normally.

But what they didn't tell us was my wife's condition as far as the operation for the implanting of the catheter was concerned. In the first week, everything was fine. We did the sessions at home, no diet restrictions - to the delight of my wife, and she was able to move much faster than before. But on the second week, leaks began to flow where the catheter was inserted... when we went to the surgeon, we were told that her skin are already too thin and might not really be able to hold the fluids leaking from her body. But he said, give it another week or two for the wound to be finally healed.

But it didn't happen... things got worse..............................

I'm sorry, I can't finish this blog......

Maybe I'm not cut for blogging

Paid blogging that is! Applied for some which offers opportunities to earn thru blogging... but somehow my blogs doesn't get the nod. Is it because my blogs are lacking in commercial substance? Actually, it's because of too few entries in my blogs... and quite long intervals in-between. So I'm told. Yes I know... it's their prerogative.

I can't for the life of me understand why I should write 20 blog entries within a span of 90 days! Such criteria I believe is too shallow! Looking for quantity rather than quality! Maybe I could do that, after all I'm unemployed. I just have to blabber everyday - nonsense or not, at least it could add up the number. Still, too shallow a criteria for me.

Maybe I should just copy any articles from the net and post it on my blogs - that would qualify me for the quantity as there are far too many articles to pick up from the web. But copy-paste isn't my style. I'd rather write my own... no offense to those who does copy-paste. I guess it would be just fine as long they give credits to their source. Unfortunately, I've read lots of them who owned the articles they post when it is very obvious that it wasn't their original. AND THEY GET AWAY IT! Is that what problogging means?

Anyway, if I wasn't cut for it - so be it. Maybe someday I could learn to divide my emotions in two topics, or maybe three even! Just to be able to satisfy the quantity factor. Just as of now, it will be just as it is... my blogs... my own.

I could use that $50!

Well, it’s not that I need that $50 very badly! The heck! I do need it very badly! What $50 am I talking about you might say? Well, I stumbled upon this contest for bloggers wherein you will have a chance to win $50, just by writing! Isn’t that great! I just blog about the subject and then I’ll be $50 richer! That is, if I win of course.

The irony of this is that, for me win that $50, I should announce it in my blog so I could encourage other bloggers to join in as well – yes, I should invite more competition. Hey! It’s the rule! If we don’t like the rule, either we don’t join or just create our own contest. But as for me, right now I need that $50!

As I was saying, there is this contest at Entrepreneur Life that gives everyone a chance to WIN $50 Cash Money just by blogging. Just click the link to see all the details of the contest which would end on May 19 by the way. With the winner to be chosen by Johnny Logan himself, the owner of Entrepreneur Life. His blog isn’t that bad! A quick browse at his pages would show great articles that even a whiner like me could appreciate! So what are you waiting for? Jump right in and join the prey!... err, fun I mean.

Do me a favor though, don’t make your write-up too good. At least, give me a fighting chance, okay?

I can't believe I just turned 40!

I can't believe I just turned 40! Not because I don't want to, but because I don't have anything solid to back-up that 4 decades of existence! What have I done? Have I been sleeping all these years? What proof have I got to show that I did something in those 40 loooong years?

If only I turned 40 earlier, I could have something to brag about... I had a decent job, a house in my name, a loving wife and 3 lovely kids, with friends surrounding me everywhere! But now, at a time that I have to be 40... I am without a house of my own, and more often than not I am delayed in the payment of my rent, causing an irate landlady to almost evict us from her apartment. My wife has already given up in her fight with ESRD and I am partly to blame because I can't sustain all her medications. My 3 kids alternately got sick because I don't know how to take care of them! And my friends? Did I say I have friends? My bad... I'm not really the friendly type, that's why... maybe I drove them all away.

They say life begins at 40... what?! You mean I'm just starting out?! I'll be damned! Does it mean that there are more to come? What then is to become of me? of my kids? If I would have my way, this would all be easy... it could end it all right here, right now! Unfortunately, it's not that simple, that would be too much of a selfishness. I have to consider the kids, whom I promised my wife to take care of.

So, after 40 years that ended in nothing... will there be more nothings to expect in the coming years?

I'll be damned!

Job 3:20-26

Why let people go on living in misery?
Why give light to those in grief?
They wait for death, but it never comes;
they prefer a grave to any treasure.
They are not happy till they are dead and buried;
God keeps their future hidden and hems
them in on every side.
Instead of eating, I mourn, and I can never
stop groaning.
Everything I fear and dread comes true
I have no peace, no rest, and my
troubles never end.

Some father I'm turning out to be!

I was really wrong! I thought right intentions could very well carry me into carrying the task... nothing could be more stupid than that thought! Because the truth is, I am clueless on what to do next! Some father I turn out to be!

I thought everything would be easy, since I've been doing it for the last 15 years! But now, I just don't know where to start! I don't even know where I left off!

Two children getting sick in two weeks. Not even constant medicine reminders could speed up their recovery. I guess I really lack the mother's touch that magically heals an ailing child. No matter how hard I try, I know, I can't be their mother.

Did I mention that I'm not working? So I am with them, 24/7! There's really no excuse for me not to be able to take care of my kids! Haven't been able to feed them decent food lately - mostly fried, instant, canned, take-outs and others whatchamacallit! As I really don't know what to cook without my wife giving me directions.


Now, as I go on... I really don't know where to go. I'm worried about my children. I pity them for they have me as a father. They deserve more! I have lots of dreams for them, I do. But it seems I really don't know how to get it for them, and instead vent out frustrations on them. I hope I could do more... stupid of just creating more stupid blogs!

I really wish I could be a better father to my children.

Born Loser... Am I?

Another failed interview... another self-analysis. In less than a week I will be 40... not the best age to apply for a job, unless I get myself qualified for executive positions. Which of course, I am not. Where would I be going now? What are my options?

They say when you're down, there's no way to go but up. That's what I thought too. But when you thought that you are at your lowest, you will begin to feel that you are sinking... deeper... lower than low... and lower still. Until you will come to realize that down and low are such infinite words. What you thought was the worst, is the actually just the tip of the iceberg.

This isn't my first failure. Nope, I've had one-too-many of them failures and loses, that I sometimes believe that I was born to fail. What others thought was a great achiever is actually a failure. Yes, some people do believe that I'm a great person, that I can accomplish so much. That I'll be successful someday, if I'm not yet successful now. I inspire them, they say. I am such a strong person.

Those were actually the opposite of the truth. A facade that I somehow manage to project... yet can't carry on. What they thought was a winner is actually a born loser! In every sense of the word! I am the personification of the word failure! Just look at me! Four decades of non-achievement and without a legacy to leave to my children.

I was told once by somebody that... "People say, every business you put up was a failure." Those words were not even half-lies. They were absolute truth. Whoever said that might have seen me trying to make something... and every time, I failed.

I am not special... I have no inspiring or success stories to share. Maybe the best that I can do is that to show you what you should not be for you to become successful.


May 3, 2008
1:03 AM
Angeles City


.

eating shit!

eating shit!
that's how i feel right now!
eating shit!
i really can't tell how
fuck the way that life pushes me!
fuck all those who screwed me!
damn it! i really don't deserve this!
i'm on the edge and i just can't bear this!
fucking shit, everywhere i see!
fucking shit, everyday i'll be!
i don't think this is how life was meant to be
fuck life!
fuck everybody!
i'm on the edge and i just can't bear this!

eating shit!
that's how i feel right now!



January 6, 2005
1:45 pm
San Fernando, Pampanga

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I don't usually write like this. But at the moment of writing,
this was how I exactly I was feeling.

Notice of disconnection

This morning, at exactly 8am, a man knocked at our door. It was from the electric company and he gave us a slip which says 'Notice Of Disconnection'. Our electric bill for two months amounting to P2,500 is overdue, and I have until 10AM to pay for it. Otherwise, our electricity will be cut-off, until such time I would be able to pay them.

This isn't exactly new to me. Actually this the nth disconnection notice that I received. I received 2 or 3 notices in my old house before, another in the next apartment that I rented, 3 or 4 in my already-closed Internet shop, and I think it's the 3rd in my present apartment I'm living in. There were times that I was able to find some money to pay for them, although there were also instances wherein I was not able to do anything and just watched the linemen as they disconnected the electric meter from our house. Leaving us... a sick wife and three little kids, without electricity. During days, it was fine. But as night time comes, of course it would also be dark inside the house, being without a light. Until I finally would be able to find some money to have my electric reconnected.

Now, if that ain't shit, I don't know it is! Yes! Shit happens! Especially in my life! In fact, shit has become a way of life for me I think. It seems to be in my system. Something or someone always screws me! Damn!

Today, I was able to borrow money from my mother to pay for the bill. Fortunately, she was able to find money that's why I'm here now typing shits on my blog. Otherwise, I would be writing instead in my notebook, because I would have no power. Today, I was fortunate. But the next time I would received a disconnection notice? I really don't know.

Damn shit!


April 23, 2008
1:56AM